|Posted on August 21, 2012 at 9:50 AM|
Dear Ones: am celebrating two anniversaries this month. The first one is one of absolute joy in my life.
Bodhi came home with me August 13, 2011 at nearly 1 year old. He is so filled with joy and love that my heart sometimes bursts with the love that flows. He adjusted fairly quickly and once he came out from under the bed, he has grown and blossomed into one of the most beautiful kittehs - inside and out.
The second anniversary is 2 years this month (can't remember the exact date but it was August 2010). A friend sent me a beautiful picture of artwork featuring Jaguar. Around the same time, I had a vision - spontaneous - of Jaguar leading me to a pyramid structure that seemd to be in Central America. There are many sacred sites in that part of the world and I had concerns of finding the exact spot within a short amount of time.
Shows what an idiot I can be sometimes....Trust, Padme. Trust that the knowledge will come to you.
It didn't take me as long as I feared. The site is Tikal and I know the exact temple Jaguar led me toward.
Over the next two years, there were forces - many of which are internally generated - that were suppressing those desires to connect to Knowledge, to Wisdom that is timeless and universal in the application. This Wisdom benefits All Life and that should be the focus of any healing.
Jaguar is strong protective energy for me. Its presence with my soul is potent, mystical, magical and comforting all at the same time. Jaguar has the mystery of the night, the moon reflecting on water as a means for me to go within to clear myself, to bring to the surface all that is buried in my cells, my DNA. I am being called to do ritual healing once more. I kept those articles safely stored during the homeless times and they are with me now and ready once I undergo a Vision Quest (as soon as I can arrange it).
I have been designing Spiritual Shields - I am not a shaman, but I am going to use these for my own spiritual strengthening. I am aware of many "holes" in my own energy field and now is the time to repair, sustain and strengthen them. I've been battered enough. Spirit willing I pray for the materials to bring them to physical appearance to be in a meditation/yoga/library room. Since connecting with Lynn V. Andrews, it feels as if my mind - the part containing this Knowledge - is being blown open. I can't hide it, I can't suppress it anymore and I have the feel that many people around me may pull away because I will no longer fit the mold of the outer mainstream world (in their eyes), I've worn too many masks, hurt too many people. Now I have to be me. I have to bring that mystical side of me outward instead of hanging onto it for dear life. It has to be a joyously fully integrated part of me.
Animals and Nature are part of this. A huge part (not a surprise, for which I am thankful). Healing Father/Mother Earth is a large part of the motivation, the impetus behind this. Gaia is screaming for help. We have to do what we can - even from the smallest action to the biggest event/demonstration - to help her heal. There are too many forces trying to pollute her, rape her, take from her without giving back, without repairing damage. Innocent animals and plants/trees are dying in ever-increasing numbers.
This is going to be a part of my Journey. How it will manifest is the Will of Spirit - I am only a conduit.
And Jaguar will be with me as protection and teaching - along with Hawk (2 of them, actually), Horse (Yay!!!), Dog, Cat, Tiger, Lion, Oak, Holly, Pine. And more.
It wil be beautiful.
And I will finally be at peace.