|Posted on June 17, 2012 at 11:55 AM|
A Blessed Father's Day to those men who grace our lives with their strength, wisdom, teaching, caring. You are so important to your children as they are important to you. Treasure each other, love each other, nurture each other, teach each other.
Hi, Dad...Happy Father's Day wherever you are. I usually don't feel you as much as I feel Mom but today...I do. We would celebrate your birth-day and Father's Day together because the dates are only days apart...so you get to be honored twice in a week. Cool.
But today I feel you very strongly and I am in tears. I don't know why I miss you today so much....but you know how hard the last few years have been. There were times when I would be in despair and times when I felt as if the outer world was closing in on me and suffocating me. You know how much I value personal freedom and how much I do not like being controlled - especially by men who think women are subservient creatures.
Dad, I think I'm finally starting to grow up. I took a step last week that has changed my entire outlook and because of that new perception, such goodness is starting to flow. The final inspiration was observing the lives of my roommate and our neighbor. Both women re-invented themselves and I decided that if they can do it, so can I. Its a matter of obtaining information for what one wants and then going after it. In my case, what happened is the one thing that can help me bring all my projects, dreams and desires together to structure the life I want - not what other people want me to do.
I'm starting Massage School on July 9th. I'm so excited about this and it was thru an e-mail sent to me that all this started. The school is top-rate, the faculty and administrative people are so supportive....and to a person, they can relate to where I come from with the animal healing work that I intend to develop. But I will get solid training both in Massage Therapy and in setting up a business. So these along with the holistic business coach I'm working with is going will give me the tools I need to do this right the first time.
I feel you had a hand in this. I feel you want me to be happy and to have the freedom to make my choices instead of having them made for me. I can't work in an office environment anymore - I don't have the stomach for "fast-paced" environments where competition is the norm. My age - at least in mainstream society- is now a detriment to being hired in a mainstream environment. I need to be of service, not competition. I need to be able to provide people with healing tools for their individual healing journeys and then THEY can help others...and also re-connect with Gaia and all the beautiful life that is here...
So I'll do what I have wanted to do for years and be around support instead of the opposite.
So thank you for this gift, Dad. I know it came from you and it is so wonderful. My entire outlook has changed. I had to nurture the compassion first and then I'll obtain the skills needed to do what I want to do.
And I also know you and Ralph are continuing to play practical jokes on Spirit....that makes hevvin a fun place.
Dad, I love you.